Things

Dear Nicole, 10/22/07

Ok, so it's been awhile. At least then when I do write, it's an event! I'm at lunch at the office. I actually brought my lunch today, can you believe it?!? Ulterior motives. If I eat in the breakroom, I can see the various hotties around the office as they walk by. Yes, I know not much changes around here. Different scenery, different faces, same old story.

I am writing because I need an outlet for all the thoughts and emotions going through my mind lately. That whole concept of friends for reasons, seasons or a lifetime is right. You would have to be a lifetime friend. Listening to all my ups and downs over the years. I appreciate it.

Ok, so the latest saga, I want to be a writer. You've known that for about twenty some odd years, but I'm finally doing something about it. I have so many ideas and want to see them all through, but I have writer's ADD sometimes. Start one thing, don't finish it before I move on to something else. I am finally getting sick enough of corporate life to make the leap though.

Here's what I envision: A nice, crisp, clean room. White curtains around the open window that blow gently in the breeze. I look up to feel the wind caress my face and look out on the gorgeous landscape that surrounds me. Trees in fall colors, hills, grassy meadows, puffy clouds, blue sky, birds circling high as they ride the same currents that are carried through my window. I turn back to my computer to continue writing. Of course, I will have to get over writing by hand, like I do now.

In this fantasy, I have already overcome the hardships of writing, like finishing a manuscript, getting it published and surviving the criticism. I really want this badly, so I am preparing myself. My plans consist of writing short stories to be sent to the local magazines and papers. Sort of editorials - a woman on the streets if you will. Not a woman of the streets as those are a different type of story!

My mom once told me that I should write children's books. I was just thinking that if I did really young kids' books, I could get my brother to do the art work for me. Might be an icebreaker for me at this point.

Ok, so now that the game plan is out there, let's talk about the juicy stuff...BOYS!! I want one so badly I can practically taste it. Or that could just be my stomach grumbling since I'm not actually eating my lunch that I brought (hard to cut chicken and write at the same time). Anywho, the players at this moment on the stage of my imagination are as follows:

G - software developer, tall, thin, darkly handsome and about 8 years younger than me. Lovely accent and dimples that you could dive in!

S - same department, attentive, funny, smart, pain in the ass, looks great in a pair of jeans, but unfortunately he knows it!

M - young, athletic soccer coach. Younger and is swarmed by all the moms and young girls whenever he is on the field. He's another one that believes his own press...but he's nice to look at.

J - young (there's a theme here), quiet, works out, single dad....we make eye contact in the hallway, although I prefer to view him from behind!

And yet none of them are really options since I swore that I wouldn't get interested in someone from work again...M doesn't count either, not a deep enough connection. I will have to keep looking, although my horoscope said I'd probably meet my soul mate on a trip. I'm off to Chicago tomorrow for the rest of the week. Who knows, maybe Mr. Right or Mr. Right Now will be there for me to meet? I will allow myself to be open to meeting him.

Well, I guess that's all for now. I will definitely be keeping in touch more often. I have to get this stuff out somehow.

Love,

Annie